Tuesday, April 28, 2015
I'm sure there are some people out there who are the perfect weight AND have no debt. And I'm super jealous of them. I need to find one of them to be my life coach. I really would love a life coach. Is there really such a thing?
If any of my readers are a life coach, hook me up. I need life help.
Monday, April 27, 2015
I had a nice loss this week! I am down 2.8 pounds from last week, and a total of 17.6 pounds! I feel good! Tomorrow I am getting pictures taken, and I am starting to feel a difference in how my clothes are fitting. The weight is coming off rather slowly, but like I said before- this is a lifestyle change, it's not a diet. I am altering the way I eat for life, not trying to get down to the lowest number I can get to and then scratch my head and say, "now what?"
My neighbor told me yesterday she could tell I had lost weight. She asked me what I was going to do to reward myself when I got to 20 pounds down. I kind of laughed at her. I know I have worked hard, but not as hard as some of you bloggers out there! I read some of your blogs and you have consistent losses every week. You persevere and you make no excuses. Here I am, every other day writing about how I cheated. ha! It's kind of humorous to think about treating myself.
So this is what I've decided to do, after 30 pounds down I am going to get a pedicure, so all you dedicated bloggers don't have to look at my nasty toenails on the scale anymore. I consider it a community win.
Good luck with your weight loss endeavors. You motivate me more than you know.
Sunday, April 26, 2015
Good luck with your weight loss!
Friday, April 24, 2015
As I sit here thinking about what to write about, my sister pops in my head. She and I have been struggling to keep close the past few years, mainly because she is constantly working or doing things for other people, and because I moved 5 hours away. One thing we have been able to bond over is these essential oils she gave me. I don't go into it too deeply, because I'm not trying to sell anything on here. However, I am writing because through these last 2 months as I have been striving for weight loss, I have now turned to strive for being healthy and fit. I want to treat my body and mind well. I want to live a nice, long life with J by my side. He keeps things interesting. If you are into all this aromatherapy stuff, you should check some of the oils out. I like diffusing them, I think they are helping with my stress level, and I really do feel better on the days I diffuse them around the house.
I really like diffusing Joy, Purification and Valor around the house. It's nice for a little pick-me-up. If you're not into aromatherapy, then just disregard this part. I guess I'm a hippie at heart.
Anyway, my sister doesn't know about my blog to date, so I'm not trying to get on her good side. (However, if you do get on her good side, she will make you dinner, and she is a VERY good cook!)
As I sit here reflecting on weight loss throughout life, a period of time comes to me when L and I were on college. I was gaining weight at a rapid speed, and had just started to be at the point where I was going to have to start wearing plus sizes. I already have no fashion sense, and I had no idea how to pick out clothes that looked good on me. One day during summer break, my sister approached me. She wanted to take me shopping. I remember that most of the clothes in my closet were either too small or too big. I had very little self-esteem, and I felt like I looked like Shamu (which is interesting, because I weigh a good 70 pounds more NOW than I did then. Perspective- it's somethin, ain't it?)
I was resistant at first, because my sister was tiny- she took care of herself. Now, you women out there with a few extra pounds- do you like going shopping with women who are small and look cute in anything? If you're anything like me, the answer is no. I guess she was persistent, because I did go.
It was one of the funnest experiences I've had shopping. My sister had several opportunities to criticize the things that I put on. She could have made jabs, and inserted in the conversation how things looked SOO good on her, but didn't on me. But she did not do that- not even once. She picked out clothes for me that she thought would fit, analyzed them after I modeled them for her, and then gave her advice. She was gentle, she didn't criticize. My weight didn't come up. She would look at me, and if she didn't think what I had on looked flattering on me, she would find something else. She doesn't know this, but that day meant more than a million bucks to me. She was patient, uplifting, and gentle.
L, I love you, and I think you are one of the most beautiful women I have ever met, inside and out. One day, you will read this. When you do, please know that you are an inspiration to me. You are the best sister anybody could have, and you mean more to me than you will ever know. Thank you for lifting me up when I was down.
Good luck with your weight loss endeavors this week!
Here is a picture of L and me in my grandparents' RV. We were so young and cute. L is on the left, I am on the right.
Thursday, April 23, 2015
This is where the bike trail passes through Loveland. It's beautiful! I didn't go far today, just scoping it out. Another phone app I love- My Tracks. I love it! I just pushed play when I was about to start my bike ride, put my phone in my pocket and took off. Here is a picture of my route:
Wednesday, April 22, 2015
Tuesday, April 21, 2015
Monday, April 20, 2015
Second, I require a strict routine. When there is no strict routine in place, I start to get bored and cheat. I like to stay busy to keep my mind from wondering to food. This is where I am going to have to work hard to stay on track. There is absolutely NO WAY that circumstances will allow me to stay on a strict routine 100% of the time. Life happens. Things happen. It will be hard, but it is important for me to learn how to adapt.
Third, when I'm cheating, and being tempted I do not blog as much. Perhaps it should be the other way around. When I am doing well, I should blog, but when I'm not doing well, I should blog even more! I need that sense of accountability.
Reflecting on your bad points is the birth to personal enlightenment. Some people don't like to concentrate on their bad points, but how else will you grow? You have to know why you do certain things in order to be able to change your behavior.
Anyway, I bet you thought I was rambling so that you would forget it is weigh in week. Not so...here goes...
There you have it ladies and gentlemen. I have no idea how but I have maintained my weight, despite all the bad foods I ate. This week begins a better journey into weight loss. This week there will be a loss.
Good luck with your own weight loss endeavors.
Friday, April 17, 2015
Wednesday, April 15, 2015
Work has me beat. I haven't had much to contribute and because of this conference I've been thrown off my routine. This is not an excuse, and I will take credit for any fallbacks I have this week. Hope everyone is doing better than me.
And I built a fire and now it's raining. Just about right.
Tuesday, April 14, 2015
Everyone at work is required to attend a conference called "Reigniting the Spirit of Caring." Today was my first day, and this is my kind of conference. Today we talked about how each of us are important, and how to love ourselves. The conference will eventually go into how to become a better co-worker and then slyly elude how to become a better employee, but today they gave us rose-colored glasses and yelled, "Love thyself!"
One thing our counselor covered was that each of us are important, and therefore we deserve to take care of ourselves. We deserve to put ourselves first, then family and other things second, because if we don't take care of ourselves first, we can't adequately take care of anything else. They dipped into the important of diet and exercise (secretly I wondered if this was a ploy to decrease our insurance premiums, but who knows).
If anything, today reminded me that I am doing this healthy lifestyle thing for a reason. I want to be fit. I want to be healthy. I want to do things without being worried about my size and weight. I don't want to sit in a room and secretly wonder if I am the biggest one there. I want to be proud of myself.
Today is fat Tuesday: J lost 2 pounds. We are on a roll!
Monday, April 13, 2015
I am down 1.4 pounds from last week for a total of 14.8 pounds. I'm not losing very fast, but at least I am still losing. I understand it is by my own doing that I am not losing as fast as expected. I chose to up my calorie intake so I wouldn't get bored on my diet, I choose not to exercise like I know I should. Honestly, after traveling and reducing my water so drastically I'm thankful to have lost at all.
I forgot about the pictures. (sorry!!) Maybe I can take some later today. I hope everyone excels at their weight loss endeavors this week! Good luck!
Sunday, April 12, 2015
Saturday, April 11, 2015
Nashville has always been home to me. It's always good to come back. Yesterday on the road went fine. I had packed enough healthy snacks that we didn't even really get hungry for lunch. I didn't get hardly any of my water in, because if I drink too much we have to stop too much. We brought all 4 dogs, and it's still to be determined if I'm going to pull all my hair out. They are bad dogs on roadtrips.
Dinner went well, we grilled some chicken and boiled some green beans. Mom was kind of funny, she kept trying to get J to eat more. After dinner, she offered ice cream which J can't turn down. We calculated how many calories he could have which turned out to be a cup of vanilla ice cream. My mom gave him a huge bowl. I started to protest, but mom scolded me.
"Let the boy eat." She said.
Southern women are so bossy.
Here is Luna, our oldest. She looks sweet, but she is really planning her next move to run away or pee on something. They all turn into bad dogs when we take them on roadtrips. Unfortunately, our dog sitter AND backup dog sitter were gone this weekend. So here we are.
Friday, April 10, 2015
Thursday, April 9, 2015
I'm really starting to get this down, and I
By the way, J is doing really well, too. However, he feels like he is in food prison. He is 11 pounds down. Go J!
Wednesday, April 8, 2015
When I work 7:30am to 8:00pm, all bets are off. I get up at 5 and eat breakfast, and then, (for instance, yesterday) I don't eat again until 3. The next chance I get to eat is then after the shift is over, around 8:00. Yesterday did not go so well. I reverted back to the old Paige. I was so hungry when I left work that I was convinced I was going to cheat.
"Just this once," my bad angel said. Then, the good angel on the other shoulder said, "yeah, actually she's right. You've done really well so far." So I went for it. I had a ton of calories left, so I don't think I blew it too bad- although I know I still went over for the day.
Anyway, I guess the whole synopsis of the journal entry is to tell you I cheated on my diet with fast food yesterday.
There I said it.
Tuesday, April 7, 2015
We spent the day going from store to store looking for the perfect bike. Several stores didn't have a great selection, but we finally found one that fit J's fancy.
As soon as we got home, we both went on a long bike ride and enjoyed the nice weather. After the bike ride, we warmed up our dinner and build a fire in our chiminia.
The fire was not featured in this picture. It was shy and refused to get its picture taken.
Spring is finally here! What a great day!
Monday, April 6, 2015
Like my collage abilities? Thought you would. This week I lost 1.8 pounds- 13.4 pounds total. Way to go me. Anyway, I am tired and am now going to bed. Good luck with your weight loss endeavors!
Sunday, April 5, 2015
I am a very modest person. Even if I lost a whole bunch of weight, I'm not sure I would be able to don a bikini and prance around. Anyway, this dream made me laugh, because a few years ago (when I was not dieting, or doing anything to lose weight) I dreamt I was on a cruise ship and I had accidentally packed my sister's bikini instead of my one piece, and had to walk around with a bikini on. In this dream, everybody stopped and laughed at me. I remember being embarrassed in my dream, but my subconscious self made no attempt to hide my body. I just walked around in that bikini, mortified. That makes me laugh. Two interesting dreams- almost identical.
Eating healthy makes me weird.