First of all, let me say I only work 3 days a week. I am spoiled. However, my job is chaotic. I am an RN on a critical care unit that is constantly busy. You never know what patients will be admitted, it is not uncommon we work short handed, and some of the patients can be very sick. Some days, there's just no way I'm gonna get lunch. I know this because there are days I quite literally don't sit down. My usual shift is 11:30 to midnight. I love this shift, because I can wake up about 8am, eat my breakfast, get to work a little early and eat a snack and then I'm usually good for a while. After management leaves I can eat out on the unit, so then I only have to wait until 5 before I can eat again. My eating schedule when I work 11:30 to midnight is like a well oiled machine.
When I work 7:30am to 8:00pm, all bets are off. I get up at 5 and eat breakfast, and then, (for instance, yesterday) I don't eat again until 3. The next chance I get to eat is then after the shift is over, around 8:00. Yesterday did not go so well. I reverted back to the old Paige. I was so hungry when I left work that I was convinced I was going to cheat.
"Just this once," my bad angel said. Then, the good angel on the other shoulder said, "yeah, actually she's right. You've done really well so far." So I went for it. I had a ton of calories left, so I don't think I blew it too bad- although I know I still went over for the day.
Anyway, I guess the whole synopsis of the journal entry is to tell you I cheated on my diet with fast food yesterday.
There I said it.