Monday, May 18, 2015
Here are the results from this week:
Good luck with your own personal weight loss endeavors!
Monday, May 4, 2015
Tuesday, April 28, 2015
I'm sure there are some people out there who are the perfect weight AND have no debt. And I'm super jealous of them. I need to find one of them to be my life coach. I really would love a life coach. Is there really such a thing?
If any of my readers are a life coach, hook me up. I need life help.
Monday, April 27, 2015
I had a nice loss this week! I am down 2.8 pounds from last week, and a total of 17.6 pounds! I feel good! Tomorrow I am getting pictures taken, and I am starting to feel a difference in how my clothes are fitting. The weight is coming off rather slowly, but like I said before- this is a lifestyle change, it's not a diet. I am altering the way I eat for life, not trying to get down to the lowest number I can get to and then scratch my head and say, "now what?"
My neighbor told me yesterday she could tell I had lost weight. She asked me what I was going to do to reward myself when I got to 20 pounds down. I kind of laughed at her. I know I have worked hard, but not as hard as some of you bloggers out there! I read some of your blogs and you have consistent losses every week. You persevere and you make no excuses. Here I am, every other day writing about how I cheated. ha! It's kind of humorous to think about treating myself.
So this is what I've decided to do, after 30 pounds down I am going to get a pedicure, so all you dedicated bloggers don't have to look at my nasty toenails on the scale anymore. I consider it a community win.
Good luck with your weight loss endeavors. You motivate me more than you know.
Sunday, April 26, 2015
Good luck with your weight loss!
Friday, April 24, 2015
As I sit here thinking about what to write about, my sister pops in my head. She and I have been struggling to keep close the past few years, mainly because she is constantly working or doing things for other people, and because I moved 5 hours away. One thing we have been able to bond over is these essential oils she gave me. I don't go into it too deeply, because I'm not trying to sell anything on here. However, I am writing because through these last 2 months as I have been striving for weight loss, I have now turned to strive for being healthy and fit. I want to treat my body and mind well. I want to live a nice, long life with J by my side. He keeps things interesting. If you are into all this aromatherapy stuff, you should check some of the oils out. I like diffusing them, I think they are helping with my stress level, and I really do feel better on the days I diffuse them around the house.
I really like diffusing Joy, Purification and Valor around the house. It's nice for a little pick-me-up. If you're not into aromatherapy, then just disregard this part. I guess I'm a hippie at heart.
Anyway, my sister doesn't know about my blog to date, so I'm not trying to get on her good side. (However, if you do get on her good side, she will make you dinner, and she is a VERY good cook!)
As I sit here reflecting on weight loss throughout life, a period of time comes to me when L and I were on college. I was gaining weight at a rapid speed, and had just started to be at the point where I was going to have to start wearing plus sizes. I already have no fashion sense, and I had no idea how to pick out clothes that looked good on me. One day during summer break, my sister approached me. She wanted to take me shopping. I remember that most of the clothes in my closet were either too small or too big. I had very little self-esteem, and I felt like I looked like Shamu (which is interesting, because I weigh a good 70 pounds more NOW than I did then. Perspective- it's somethin, ain't it?)
I was resistant at first, because my sister was tiny- she took care of herself. Now, you women out there with a few extra pounds- do you like going shopping with women who are small and look cute in anything? If you're anything like me, the answer is no. I guess she was persistent, because I did go.
It was one of the funnest experiences I've had shopping. My sister had several opportunities to criticize the things that I put on. She could have made jabs, and inserted in the conversation how things looked SOO good on her, but didn't on me. But she did not do that- not even once. She picked out clothes for me that she thought would fit, analyzed them after I modeled them for her, and then gave her advice. She was gentle, she didn't criticize. My weight didn't come up. She would look at me, and if she didn't think what I had on looked flattering on me, she would find something else. She doesn't know this, but that day meant more than a million bucks to me. She was patient, uplifting, and gentle.
L, I love you, and I think you are one of the most beautiful women I have ever met, inside and out. One day, you will read this. When you do, please know that you are an inspiration to me. You are the best sister anybody could have, and you mean more to me than you will ever know. Thank you for lifting me up when I was down.
Good luck with your weight loss endeavors this week!
Here is a picture of L and me in my grandparents' RV. We were so young and cute. L is on the left, I am on the right.
Thursday, April 23, 2015
This is where the bike trail passes through Loveland. It's beautiful! I didn't go far today, just scoping it out. Another phone app I love- My Tracks. I love it! I just pushed play when I was about to start my bike ride, put my phone in my pocket and took off. Here is a picture of my route:
Wednesday, April 22, 2015
Tuesday, April 21, 2015
Monday, April 20, 2015
Second, I require a strict routine. When there is no strict routine in place, I start to get bored and cheat. I like to stay busy to keep my mind from wondering to food. This is where I am going to have to work hard to stay on track. There is absolutely NO WAY that circumstances will allow me to stay on a strict routine 100% of the time. Life happens. Things happen. It will be hard, but it is important for me to learn how to adapt.
Third, when I'm cheating, and being tempted I do not blog as much. Perhaps it should be the other way around. When I am doing well, I should blog, but when I'm not doing well, I should blog even more! I need that sense of accountability.
Reflecting on your bad points is the birth to personal enlightenment. Some people don't like to concentrate on their bad points, but how else will you grow? You have to know why you do certain things in order to be able to change your behavior.
Anyway, I bet you thought I was rambling so that you would forget it is weigh in week. Not so...here goes...
There you have it ladies and gentlemen. I have no idea how but I have maintained my weight, despite all the bad foods I ate. This week begins a better journey into weight loss. This week there will be a loss.
Good luck with your own weight loss endeavors.
Friday, April 17, 2015
Wednesday, April 15, 2015
Work has me beat. I haven't had much to contribute and because of this conference I've been thrown off my routine. This is not an excuse, and I will take credit for any fallbacks I have this week. Hope everyone is doing better than me.
And I built a fire and now it's raining. Just about right.
Tuesday, April 14, 2015
Everyone at work is required to attend a conference called "Reigniting the Spirit of Caring." Today was my first day, and this is my kind of conference. Today we talked about how each of us are important, and how to love ourselves. The conference will eventually go into how to become a better co-worker and then slyly elude how to become a better employee, but today they gave us rose-colored glasses and yelled, "Love thyself!"
One thing our counselor covered was that each of us are important, and therefore we deserve to take care of ourselves. We deserve to put ourselves first, then family and other things second, because if we don't take care of ourselves first, we can't adequately take care of anything else. They dipped into the important of diet and exercise (secretly I wondered if this was a ploy to decrease our insurance premiums, but who knows).
If anything, today reminded me that I am doing this healthy lifestyle thing for a reason. I want to be fit. I want to be healthy. I want to do things without being worried about my size and weight. I don't want to sit in a room and secretly wonder if I am the biggest one there. I want to be proud of myself.
Today is fat Tuesday: J lost 2 pounds. We are on a roll!
Monday, April 13, 2015
I am down 1.4 pounds from last week for a total of 14.8 pounds. I'm not losing very fast, but at least I am still losing. I understand it is by my own doing that I am not losing as fast as expected. I chose to up my calorie intake so I wouldn't get bored on my diet, I choose not to exercise like I know I should. Honestly, after traveling and reducing my water so drastically I'm thankful to have lost at all.
I forgot about the pictures. (sorry!!) Maybe I can take some later today. I hope everyone excels at their weight loss endeavors this week! Good luck!
Sunday, April 12, 2015
Saturday, April 11, 2015
Nashville has always been home to me. It's always good to come back. Yesterday on the road went fine. I had packed enough healthy snacks that we didn't even really get hungry for lunch. I didn't get hardly any of my water in, because if I drink too much we have to stop too much. We brought all 4 dogs, and it's still to be determined if I'm going to pull all my hair out. They are bad dogs on roadtrips.
Dinner went well, we grilled some chicken and boiled some green beans. Mom was kind of funny, she kept trying to get J to eat more. After dinner, she offered ice cream which J can't turn down. We calculated how many calories he could have which turned out to be a cup of vanilla ice cream. My mom gave him a huge bowl. I started to protest, but mom scolded me.
"Let the boy eat." She said.
Southern women are so bossy.
Here is Luna, our oldest. She looks sweet, but she is really planning her next move to run away or pee on something. They all turn into bad dogs when we take them on roadtrips. Unfortunately, our dog sitter AND backup dog sitter were gone this weekend. So here we are.
Friday, April 10, 2015
Thursday, April 9, 2015
I'm really starting to get this down, and I
By the way, J is doing really well, too. However, he feels like he is in food prison. He is 11 pounds down. Go J!
Wednesday, April 8, 2015
When I work 7:30am to 8:00pm, all bets are off. I get up at 5 and eat breakfast, and then, (for instance, yesterday) I don't eat again until 3. The next chance I get to eat is then after the shift is over, around 8:00. Yesterday did not go so well. I reverted back to the old Paige. I was so hungry when I left work that I was convinced I was going to cheat.
"Just this once," my bad angel said. Then, the good angel on the other shoulder said, "yeah, actually she's right. You've done really well so far." So I went for it. I had a ton of calories left, so I don't think I blew it too bad- although I know I still went over for the day.
Anyway, I guess the whole synopsis of the journal entry is to tell you I cheated on my diet with fast food yesterday.
There I said it.
Tuesday, April 7, 2015
We spent the day going from store to store looking for the perfect bike. Several stores didn't have a great selection, but we finally found one that fit J's fancy.
As soon as we got home, we both went on a long bike ride and enjoyed the nice weather. After the bike ride, we warmed up our dinner and build a fire in our chiminia.
The fire was not featured in this picture. It was shy and refused to get its picture taken.
Spring is finally here! What a great day!
Monday, April 6, 2015
Like my collage abilities? Thought you would. This week I lost 1.8 pounds- 13.4 pounds total. Way to go me. Anyway, I am tired and am now going to bed. Good luck with your weight loss endeavors!
Sunday, April 5, 2015
I am a very modest person. Even if I lost a whole bunch of weight, I'm not sure I would be able to don a bikini and prance around. Anyway, this dream made me laugh, because a few years ago (when I was not dieting, or doing anything to lose weight) I dreamt I was on a cruise ship and I had accidentally packed my sister's bikini instead of my one piece, and had to walk around with a bikini on. In this dream, everybody stopped and laughed at me. I remember being embarrassed in my dream, but my subconscious self made no attempt to hide my body. I just walked around in that bikini, mortified. That makes me laugh. Two interesting dreams- almost identical.
Eating healthy makes me weird.
Saturday, April 4, 2015
Friday, April 3, 2015
Thursday, April 2, 2015
Wednesday, April 1, 2015
Tuesday, March 31, 2015
Monday, March 30, 2015
Not a huge loss...but I'll take it. So to date the weight loss amount is 11.6 pounds. I would like for it to be more, but that's all completely up to me. I've not exactly done a great job getting out there and hustling.
Now picture time...the pictures this week were not very good quality because I did not turn the flash on. In hindsight I should have, but my friend and I were chatting and not paying very close attention. So, with no further adeu...my pictures for this week:
Sunday, March 29, 2015
Today is the last day before weigh in tomorrow! We'll see how I did....
Saturday, March 28, 2015
I got on the scale and I weight exactly what I weighed last Monday, so I think hopefully even though I cheated I will still loose weight this week.
Hope everyone else is doing good, and have gotten all their cheats out of their system.
Friday, March 27, 2015
Thursday, March 26, 2015
Wednesday, March 25, 2015
Now, come on...even I can do that!! I have been using this app for a few days now and I really like it! Are there apps that help with weight loss that I am missing? What is your favorite weight loss app?
Tuesday, March 24, 2015
Yesterday, I thought that perhaps the letters were kind of stupid. However, after I opened it and read it- truly read it and thought about what I felt like WRITING that letter, it made me smile. I really like my idea. Of course the letter is very short because I didn't exactly know what to write myself, but it is heart felt.
Oh, and something I never thought would happen...the husband has started my diet with me. It'll be fun!!
Monday, March 23, 2015
This week the scale says:
Woohoo!! That's another 3 pounds down for a total of 10.6 pounds!
And now the pictures. I was able to figure out how to make side by side pictures finally:
At least the scale shows a loss.
Sunday, March 22, 2015
Saturday, March 21, 2015
Friday, March 20, 2015
I went out into the unit where the charge nurse, "D" sat. I love D, she is good. She is also loud and not able to read her surroundings all that well. I asked D to call the custodian to deliver me more scrubs. So D gets on her walkie talkie (they're called Voceras, but unless you work in health care you may never have heard of them. They are just like walkie talkies) and called the custodian. The Vocera was turned up so loud that several doctors turned around to stare at her to see what was going on. D told the very loud walkie talkie that Paige needed new scrubs.
"What size does she need?"
Me: "Um...(trying to whisper)...how about 2x...
D: "That'll be a 2x." (more of the doctors turned around to see what was going on behind them.
Custodian: Well, I'm out of 2x. I don't think she could fit into a 1 x, so I'll grab a 3x for her.
The custodian was not trying to be mean, he was just thinking out loud. This time everybody turned around and stared at us. I'm sure there were several people looking my way to see if I was in fact, too big for a 1x. I shrunk back into my patient's room and waited for the scrubs. Then, to make matters worse, the 3x was just a little too small. But you better believe I wore them around like they fit just right. I was not ABOUT to ask for a 4x.
Thank goodness I can laugh about this story now. I was mortified when it happened.
Thursday, March 19, 2015
Wednesday, March 18, 2015
Fruit smoothie (made with fresh strawberries and blueberries and light soy milk)
a low calorie Jimmy Dean breakfast sandwich (about 230 calories or something like that)
a cup of coffee sweetened with splenda
Granola Bar (calories range but I try to keep it around 100 calories)
weight watcher meal
100 calorie yogurt
frozen veggies (keep under 100 calories)
weight watcher meal
I know I will probably have to start cooking my own lunch and dinner soon, but I just love these little meals. They range from 150-300 calories and are so easy!
Tuesday, March 17, 2015
Monday, March 16, 2015
Down 7.6 pounds baby!! Wow!! (and it wasn't ALL from the socks). I am out of the 290s, and I will never see them again!!
I'll have to figure out how to put these pictures side by side, but for now, they're just one on top of the other:
Sunday, March 15, 2015
I eat healthy--> I want to continue to eat healthy--> I eat healthy
I honestly have never done so well this long, literally not straying from my diet once. I really hope this is a new change for me.
It was the pictures...I knew they would work! You can't look at your butt head on and not want to lose weight!!
Saturday, March 14, 2015
By the way, why is it that when someone goes on an eating binge, people just kind of laugh and go on. If someone fell off the wagon when they were battling with heroine everybody would be very distraught. I want my friends and family to be distraught if I gain weight. My poor husband, he would totally get onto me if I wanted him to, but after 2 years of being married to a fatty, he is afraid to say anything. He knows that in the past it hurt my feelings. He doesn't necessarily care about my weight, but he is skinny and he likes to do outside sports stuff, and I always feel self conscious, so I can never do them. Therefore, we always end up spending time together by going out to eat. (Or at least we did before I started this lifestyle change). Recently we got a Xbox One Sports Kinect. We actually do that together and have a lot of fun. I love that game.
Friday, March 13, 2015
Thursday, March 12, 2015
So I started trying to convert my weight to oz. and divide by 1/3, but I just kept getting frustrated. I hate having to do so much work to just figure out HOW much water to drink- I haven't even started the work of drinking it all yet! But then...I found this app. It ROCKS! It's called HydroCoach. It's a free app you can download onto your phone from the appstore:
I LOVE this little app! It calculates how many ounces of water you need to drink a day, and you can chart them with a few pushes of a button. It will even yell at you if you want! I don't like it chiming in every hour telling me to drink more water, so I turned it off.
As for my diet, yesterday went well. The biggest struggle (besides the water) is not eating after 7pm. I get off work at midnight, and was hitting up the 24 hour McDonalds down the road from work probably 2 or 3 times a week. I LOVE McDonald french fries. Anyway, my body got into the habit of eating around 11 or midnight. Now, my body is chiming in right around 10pm saying, "hello?? Aren't you going to feed me?" I know that the more I change my diet, my body will soon adapt. But I still am tempted by those McDonald french fries...
Wednesday, March 11, 2015
I was telling my coworkers yesterday that what I am doing is not a diet. It. is. a. lifestyle. change. Right now I'm not eating out, or eating anything extra that's not on my diet because I know it'll trigger my impulse to eat and I may just fall off the wagon.
I purchased a book on tape about food addiction. Listening to the book, they compared food addiction to food compulsion. I definitely think I could actually have food compulsion. The beginning of the book was barely able to hold my attention. "I already know all this stuff!" I thought! The book went over the basics....very basics. But as the chapters continued to ramble on, a lot of good information came through. Did you know food can illicit the same type of dopamine release in the brain as an illicit drug can in drug addicts? Who knew!
The book states that a lot of people, though they may be unconscious of it, turn to food because they feel lonely and get this- eating a certain kind of food (i.e. McDonalds french fries for me)- can actually stimulate the same areas of the brain that is stimulated when they feel like someone loves them!
When these pathways in the brain get use to that feeling after eating a trigger food, the brain correlates food with pleasure. Therefore, when you are sad, depressed, stressed- the brain thinks you need food to feel better - and the brain can actually try to convince you that you are hungry! The book states there are ways to train yourself to be able to tell whether you have actual hunger or compulsive eating. I may post those tomorrow, I'm still listening to that portion of the book.
The best sentence in the book states: Food DOES NOT love you back! Interesting....
The book I referenced is Food Addiction: Conquering Your Addiction Successfully; How To Get Out Of The Clutches Of Food Addiction For Good by Petra Ortiz
Tuesday, March 10, 2015
Monday, March 9, 2015
Today I got on the scale and saw this:
Yikes!! When did this happen?? To be honest, I breathed a sigh of relief I hadn't hit 300 pounds yet. Although, I'm not too far from it. But not anymore! I'm losing it!!!
First thing I am going to do: I am going to change my diet. I am going to eat 6 small meals a day. I am going to be conscious of my fruit and vegetable intake. I am going to steer clear of fatty foods, and watch my portions. As for exercise, I am going to job/walk two and a half miles in the morning and then do some form of exercise, whether walking or riding my bike in the evenings.
I have also decided to include some pictures, to really get me motivated. Yikes, I can't believe I'm posting these, but it's important that I realize how I look. In a way, I feel like there's no way I could be this big. But the pictures don't lie.
And finally, my goals. I think that my ultimate goal would be that I want to be able to fit on the Diamondback. The Diamondback is a roller coaster at King's Island that was build in the 1970s before they were concerned about fat people being able to ride these rides. Therefore I cannot fit on it. Thankfully, I was not asked to get off the ride. The ride has a tester seat in the front, and it was pretty clear I was not going to fit.